It’s just one of those days. For you, too?
When all of the to-do’s, and the bills, and the whines of the kids are beating you around the head–right-hook! left-hook! right-left-right!–and you can’t tell which way is up.
Or out–which is, of course, the same thing, if I could just remember to send up a prayer now and then. Or always. Or every single moment of an anxiety-ridden day.
And then today’s Gospel reading shows up in my inbox, and I get that familiar, friendly slap in the face–the Holy Spirit’s facepalm. Oohhhh, yeahhhh.
Jesus said to his disciples:
“Ask and it will be given to you;
seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.
For everyone who asks, receives; and the one who seeks, finds;
and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Which one of you would hand his son a stone
when he asked for a loaf of bread,
or a snake when he asked for a fish?
If you then, who are wicked,
know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more will your heavenly Father give good things
to those who ask him.
“Do to others whatever you would have them do to you.
This is the law and the prophets.”
it almost sounds trite, right? It’s been read, sung, quoted so many times. And it’s sooo easy to doubt… so hard to trust. Really? Anything I ask? Anyone who knocks?
And the Holy Spirit says…
Yes. You. Yes. Your needs, your hopes, your loves. Your greatest joy.
Because you are My joy.
I take joy in simple, (sinful), messy you. I will make you whole and well. In me, you will always be loved. I am taking care of you.
So hush, sweet one.
And don’t forget to knock.
Jesus, my Lord, please provide for me everything I need, everything my husband needs, and everything my children need in this day.
Give me the grace I need to trust in you, and open my heart to receive it and choose You.
Give me the grace to offer up my sufferings and anxieties for those who need prayers, for those who have no one to pray for them.
Let these sufferings and the sacrifices you bring of them unite me more closely to you.
Make my whole life, my whole heart, your own.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.